Thought of food

I felt hungry today, really hungry.
So I buried my head in food.

Now it swims in the viscous skies
Echoes of your lies, goodbyes.

I felt fat today, really fat.
My knees buckled, ashamed
My cancles bellied – defamed.

So I engulfed myself;
Switching between caffeine and dopamine,
Twitching because I am alive and need to be seen.

There are too many things I need today yet
I have no strength, no manner, no way
To achieve my greatest wishes, concerns, to achieve
Even that which I am too young to yearn. Give me a chance,
Give me day. The new year is here my love, and
Sadly my figure seems stubborn to stay.

If I must stand still and firm, make it at least
Bearable.
Take away this urge
And add to me beauty of this sunrise comparable.

Origami.
Eyes red, skin skied.
Fold me
Mold me
A perfect square.

Hold me
Control me
So that I’ll stop, ill stooped.
So that I’m here - quite near - not there.

So that I am here,
And the ladies and gents will gasp and swear
At the sight of me...
Beware.