Adolescence

I liked myself today.
I looked in the mirror, I tried on clothes, and I actually liked myself.
I liked myself – it’s true.

I felt alive too!!
I feel like I’m alive, and even if I’m not, I feel that the now I am experiencing is somehow worth it.

I feel like dancing, running, laughing.
I just feel like a giddy idiot – but an idiot I could actually like you know?
I feel hopeful too.
Like without stopping myself things will loop to the better
That the present – the middle – will sink and just form this perfect parabola.

It is true. Perhaps my mouth will never form that shape. Perhaps I will never be truly happy. But right now, as the rain falls and the light shines
I feel rosy.

Rosy, surprised and flushed.